I still get excited & smile every time I even just see him, he still makes me laugh when we talk & hang out, I still pray for him to love me & be with me again, I still wish for him at every chance I get, I cry myself to sleep most nights thinking about what we had, what we could have had, what the future holds for us & things we had said and done, I still think of him 24/7, I’m still in love with him, I’m still in pain, I still want him & I still love him with everything I have & everything that I am.

When someone tells me he doesn’t deserve me, I still answer “Yes he does”, when someone tells me I can do so much better, I still answer “No I can’t”, and sometimes I still say “I’m not good enough, I never have been, I never will, and that’s why I can’t have him”. I’m still jealous of every girl he talks to or goes near, I don’t care who it is, I’ll automatically hate her. I still wish it was me every time, not just every now & then. I’ve not deleted any messages he has ever sent to me, I’ve saved all the one’s that make me happy special, I still have our photo’s, and I’m so not over him.